To sail the ocean

my concept of the progression of time stopped in like 2000

like when I see a movie that was filmed in 1995 I’m like oh that was only like 5 years ago

then I realize it was actually 17

(Source: voldy92, via nostalgic-tillmylastbreath)

im going to go ahead and answer these because i have NOTHING better to do.

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
I think its harder for me to look at them when they are talking about feelings. not me.

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
Last time i was really mad… i guess when my mom moved out. she just kind of left me. in somewasy i feel just as angry, and in other ways i’ve forgiven her.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?
well. this is a toughy. i’d either call my dad or tyler, tell them i love them, and to tell everyone else i loved them too.

4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
i think i couldnt handle that situation on my own, but i dont want to be the center of attention. i’d probably only tell my best friend Rose. and fuck yes i’d be scared.

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.
i dont think you can truely love someone without trust.

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
yeah i probably would. or else start saving the dog, then wait fro someone to help, and then leave. i dont know. i’d feel guilty if i didnt help.

7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?
as i said earlier, you cant love withouttrust.

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?
in the past, i have forced myself into two relationships with my bestfriends (at the time) neither of them worked out. then i found a boy i just liked, dated him, and he ended up being my bestfriend andmy boyfriend\

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?
no. the last person i know that died was my grandmother, and although i loved her dearly, it was her time to go.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
no. im quiet and difficult, i often complain. i dont like to get out much.

11. Does love = sex?
no. but when you are in love sex shouldnt matter, but it does. if that makes sense…

12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?
fuck no. i have to support my own self. i may lend them money, or offer to help.

13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
oh god, i almost never do this. i think rose was the last person to know why i was actually upset. but i wasnt upset with her.

14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?
its always been harder for me to admit love, than not. because i havent had much practice of boys actually liking me enough to tell me they love me. and i get so nervous when i’,m in love, i feel like everything i do is wrong and when i want to tell them i love them , i get really scared they dont love me back.

15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
probably my dad. hes kept me so grounded, and sane that i couldnt imagine what i would do without him.

16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?
well excluding tyler, the last person i told that i loved was rose when i got off the phone with her last night. she is my bestfriend.

17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?
nope. YOLO.

18.Imagine it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?
Tyler or Rose. for sure.

19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
….. is this a question? IF I KNEW CPR ID GIVE IT TO ANYONE ANYWHERE ANYTIME.

21.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?
well the baby would weigh like nothing so id toss that shit over my shoulder, and work on saving mamaw.

22. Are you old fashioned?
not really.

23. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
ALL DAY EVERY DAY.

24.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
never loved at all. broken hearts are too hard to heal.

25.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
to have my own home with no bills.